Letting that S#!$ go!

Whilst on holiday over Christmas this year I realized there was an underlying theme to the hopes/dreams I had for the year ahead, I had written so many different ideas down that when I took a moment to reread it all I saw it was based on that very simple but extremely difficult practice of, letting go.

In yogi philosophy this is known as 'Aparigraha' Non grapsing, loosening our grips. Letting go of what I think I should be doing, of being concerned with what anyone else is doing, letting go of the past, letting go of fear in all its capacity. Letting go of the stories my mind tells me, not good enough, not this enough, what if this, what if that. Although the past has brought us to where we are and of course is of great value it can also be a hindrance to us ever moving forward.

How often do i hear myself wondering back to why i can’t do something because a past conversation, opinion or story of mine or someone elses? Perhaps If i were to just let go, move forward with a sense of freshness that nothing had happened before, nothing could hold me back, miraculous things could or should I say would take place.

Today I taught my first ever ‘real’ yoga class, to a group of beautiful, diverse yogis. Most of which I had never met before and a style of class I haven’t practiced teaching. I woke up this morning with that nervous/excited feeling of ahh im finally going to teach! After all that time invested in training, it’s happening. Then the usual boring story of self- doubt crept into my head, the naysayer voice spoke up again but something different happened this morning. I didn’t listen! I laid there thinking right you cannot get out of this bed until you are leaping out fist punching the air screaming ‘I CAN DO THIS!’ and that’s what I did! I laid there repeating those words again and again until I believed them and jumped out of bed like a karate kid ready to yogify the world! Well, something like that anyway. As the nerves tried to kick down my door in the lead up and throughout the class I somehow managed to just ignore them and remember that this is fun, this is why I spent all those months training and studying. Let go of that idea that im not this or im not that, im enough and I can do this. So after de-briefing with my Mentor Rachel, I realised that the underlining theme of success throughout the class was just loosening my grip to all of the above. Letting it go.

Isn’t it what we all need to a little more of? After all we have never been here before. We have never lived this moment right here, right now in each part of the world we are currently in. It is all new, it is all a fresh adventure with tracks that have never been walked on before.

Cheshire cat smiles at the end of my first class with my Mentor Rachel.

 If we could engage with all the above every time doubt or fear comes into our minds then I have no doubt that life would be a lot more fruitful and our minds would have so much more space for far more valuable things.

So that’s my tagline into this fresh new exciting year, Let that shit go!

Hellsx